A few months ago, I began to use Facebook. Then my entire high school graduating class began showing up and trying to re-create the days of high school on there. Now back in high school I was a bit weird. First of all I was a teacher's kid which put me at a severe disadvantage. Second, I did nothing but go to church any time the door was open and that put me a severe disadvantage. Finally, I was somewhat introverted. So, high school was a huge void of loneliness for me. One I care not to go through again. When I went to college, it took about six weeks before I discovered I didn't have to be a teacher's kid anymore, discovered alcohol and gave up on church, and turned in to a big time extrovert.
I partied a lot in college and through the early part of my 20's and then I began to settle down and mature a bit. So, now I'm on Facebook which was my first mistake. So, I have tried to actually make an effort and strike up conversations with some of the people from my high school class. My thinking was that I am certainly different, perhaps they are as well. That was my second mistake. Why is it that the majority of people can not progress beyond high school? I have congratulated newly pregnant classmates, I have congratulated ones that are about to deliver - I mean motherhood is certainly something we now all have in common for most of us. I get no response what so ever. It is very disappointing that some people simply can not imagine that how a person was in high school is not how they will be for the rest of their life. I tend to think that by getting out of my hometown and out of the South in general that I became a better person and more open minded and well rounded in comparision to my classmates that never left. Perhaps that is why they can't talk to me now - I'm weird because I experienced life!
January 12, 2009
Fell in love
I stayed home for two days last week to take care of my little boy. He is now four months old and is starting to have some personality. I went back to work when he was two months old and was still only interested in eating and sleeping. Even though he was sicker than all get out, he did nothing but smile and talk to me the entire time. He enjoyed having me to himself I suspect. He has not had that since he was born. He basically wrapped me back around his finger those two days and I fell in love with him. He is such a great little guy. I know it sounds weird, but I didn't know that I could love someone so much. Don't get me wrong - I love my daughter but it is different. I try to figure out why it is different and the only conclusion I can come up with is that I didn't bond with her the same way. I had postpartum depression fairly bad with her and it didn't help that she was a bit of a difficult baby. I love her very now like I do her brother. I of course am still learning how to be a mom to two and try to be fairsy fairsy. Though I do think that at times we love one more than the other and it swaps back and forth so it does work out to be about equal.
Luckily, my employer was cool with me taking care of my son. I was told not to apologize that family comes first. I find it hard to believe because I have been in the business world way to long but we'll see as things move forward.
Luckily, my employer was cool with me taking care of my son. I was told not to apologize that family comes first. I find it hard to believe because I have been in the business world way to long but we'll see as things move forward.
January 5, 2009
Family or Work
I knew this day would come but didn't think it would come so soon. The day where I would have to choose whether I was going to take care of my family or take care of my job. See, there shouldn't be a reason why I need to go through this selection process. However, American businesses the way that they are, they are not family friendly in reality. My husband got sick last weekend. On the second day when I realized this was more than allergies and his needing to spend the weekend on the couch, I advised him to head to Urgent Care and get this taken care of before we all get sick. He refused. So, he lingered, coughing, hacking, etc. for the remainder of the weekend. Monday morning I finally was able to get him to see a doctor who put him on all kinds of medicine. He stayed at home for the next two days from work.
Well, I really hoped that it would miss me and the kids but it did not. My daughter who is 2 has had a mild case of it. I have had a pretty bad case of it and took myself to Urgent Care to get antibiotics and prednisone because it set off my asthma really bad. My four month old has a really bad case as well and is having trouble breathing through his nose and his lungs are really gunky. Of course they can not give him anything and the whole thing has me a bit concerned because he is so little and he is so congested. He can't get to sleep very well. I even called the Dr. this morning that was on call to see if I could get any other things to try to make him comfortable and to help him breath. I was told one additional thing and told to call first thing in the morning Monday to make an appointment to have him seen quickly. Well, that would be easy to do if I didn't have to work on Monday.
My Mom normally keeps my children for me while I work. However, when my four month old is sick she gets a bit nervous about keeping him. Plus, I'm giving him breathing treatments several times a day and she is a bit unsure of doing this. So, because of this and because I'm worried to death about my son, I am going to call out from work on Monday and hope that it doesn't affect my job. I know it will in some way or another. I'll get an "occurence" because I had to take care of not only my son but I'm still sicker than a dog as well. I have spent my afternoon trying to find another way to keep from calling out because in these economic times I don't want to give my employer a reason to fire me. But, in my mind, my first priority is to the health of my children and honestly the health of me as well.
We shouldn't have to make these kinds of choices and worry about loosing our jobs because we need to take care of our children. I think this is the worst part ever about women being back in the work force and the work force not giving us any way to take care of our families. I should have been able to call my job tomorrow, explain the situation, and them be OK with it and it not count against me. My job should be protected. I should be protected because I am a mother trying to take care of her children. I should never be asked to choose job over children for any reason. Our country is very messed up in this regard.
Well, I really hoped that it would miss me and the kids but it did not. My daughter who is 2 has had a mild case of it. I have had a pretty bad case of it and took myself to Urgent Care to get antibiotics and prednisone because it set off my asthma really bad. My four month old has a really bad case as well and is having trouble breathing through his nose and his lungs are really gunky. Of course they can not give him anything and the whole thing has me a bit concerned because he is so little and he is so congested. He can't get to sleep very well. I even called the Dr. this morning that was on call to see if I could get any other things to try to make him comfortable and to help him breath. I was told one additional thing and told to call first thing in the morning Monday to make an appointment to have him seen quickly. Well, that would be easy to do if I didn't have to work on Monday.
My Mom normally keeps my children for me while I work. However, when my four month old is sick she gets a bit nervous about keeping him. Plus, I'm giving him breathing treatments several times a day and she is a bit unsure of doing this. So, because of this and because I'm worried to death about my son, I am going to call out from work on Monday and hope that it doesn't affect my job. I know it will in some way or another. I'll get an "occurence" because I had to take care of not only my son but I'm still sicker than a dog as well. I have spent my afternoon trying to find another way to keep from calling out because in these economic times I don't want to give my employer a reason to fire me. But, in my mind, my first priority is to the health of my children and honestly the health of me as well.
We shouldn't have to make these kinds of choices and worry about loosing our jobs because we need to take care of our children. I think this is the worst part ever about women being back in the work force and the work force not giving us any way to take care of our families. I should have been able to call my job tomorrow, explain the situation, and them be OK with it and it not count against me. My job should be protected. I should be protected because I am a mother trying to take care of her children. I should never be asked to choose job over children for any reason. Our country is very messed up in this regard.
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